Thursday, November 09, 2006

Growing up me


Life plays its song
Try
Try to sing along
Shy
Shy to raise my voice
Try
Try, at least make a noise

On the bus, the back stairs
I
I press the ding as my stop nears
Why
Why isn’t he stopping the bus?
I
I sit down
Miss my stop,
not to make a fuss


How much would I have learned
Had I found my voice?
How many stops have I missed?
Shackled by contentment
In the basement
Of life

Engine starts in the distance

Peering out the small window
Pouting
Shouting
Wait for MEEEEE!

But no one hears me

32 Comments:

Blogger Sara with NO H said...

I hear you. Loud and clear...

November 09, 2006 7:51 AM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

Hmmmm
That sounds familiar -
lol

A friend of mine calls it having
no b--s - lol
(sorry!)

- but, I think that those of us with the quieter characters - find our own way - with different strengths -
sometimes it's patience, sometimes it's just observing,

and other times - just being that bit bolder is such a big step for us.. that, the bold action, in and of itself.. gives us tremendous confidence for things.. while someone else who's 'used to' being loud, wouldnt gain anything much having acted in a forceful manner, because they are used to it..

Also - the quieter ones are many times the finer ones...

So i don't think you've missed many opportunities, David -
Scoot over and think about it.

November 09, 2006 8:35 AM  
Blogger chaverah said...

lol, I have been there! sometimes I am to tired to open my mouth. Of course in the end who gets hurt?? hum.....then I learn my lesson for the next time.

November 09, 2006 8:36 AM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

Oops
forgot to mention
beautiful post

November 09, 2006 8:36 AM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

one sec, one sec

you also mentioned
shackled by contentment..

if you're content, are you shackled - or do you only feel shackled when you experience a moment of discontent within the greater feeling of contentment.

Because when you do feel that moment of 'discontent' - it's time to do something about it.. and not to be laid back...

Do you think being content is not a good thing?
The way I see it,
if someone's happy with the way they are.. and have got little desire to search for more..if this is the extent of the depth of their character.. then it's no great loss not to look further..or at least..they will never feel the loss...

On the other hand.. if someone is content.. but have depth - they will know when it's time to look further...

Contentment can also be a beautiful thing when coupled with appreciation...

I think appreciation for what one has..is ultiimately the most beautiful thing... and leads to healthy contentment

November 09, 2006 8:46 AM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

oh oh!
and lastly...
lol

if this post is also about not being able to stand up for yourself..
then in this case, I must say...
that it is actually important.. for any person... to be able to firmly state his or her need or desire and to expect full respect for it..
just as you would respect the needs or desires of others
You deserve the same

November 09, 2006 8:49 AM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

blog hog
blog hog
la la la la la

November 09, 2006 8:50 AM  
Blogger chaverah said...

the only way i know - looks like this post affected you alot!

November 09, 2006 9:28 AM  
Blogger It's All Good Now said...

Poignant. Rings truer than I'd like it to.

November 09, 2006 10:12 AM  
Blogger socialworker/frustrated mom said...

Nice poem.

November 09, 2006 1:57 PM  
Blogger anonym00kie said...

that was painful to read.
but..like towik said.. the quieter ones are usually the finer ones - and ill add - often the deeper ones.
if we could all express ourselves through our voices, who would be left to express themsleves thru poetry, paintings...
beautiful post as ALWAYS

November 09, 2006 2:01 PM  
Blogger Dovid said...

That felt like a stab.

November 09, 2006 10:40 PM  
Blogger Stacey said...

But you've found it now, eh?

November 10, 2006 12:16 AM  
Blogger ~ Sarah ~ said...

it's the quiet ones you have to worry about!!

but there is a time and place to speak out, i used to be much more shy than i am now but i've learnt to know when to speak up.

November 10, 2006 1:53 AM  
Blogger Moiy-rah said...

me? i'm still quiet

does anyone hear me???

...and david, you should try running after the bus- thats an activity...

:)

-moiy

but seriously...i think many people have a distorted personality image

November 10, 2006 7:51 AM  
Blogger chaverah said...

I have a thought, Do you think there are more quiet ones that blog?

November 10, 2006 8:06 AM  
Blogger Open Up! said...

i think i understand the shackled by contentment phrase...if you don't move forward you go backwards...you need to take risks, speak up, or you will be forever shackled by your comfort zone and never accomplish anything great...contentment doesn't necessarily mean happiness it's just a place where you feel safe...behind the red line...but you gotta take a peek across the line and see what's out there otherwise life will just pass you by and noone will hear you...

November 10, 2006 10:56 AM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

sara...
Thanks...lol

Towik the First..
You have wise friends..lol
well..thats true...but theres still so much to learn by being more aggressive...and asking..inquiring..etc..

Chavera...
yes it is a sort of fatigue..but i never learnt my lesson the next time though..

Tokiw the Second..
Thanks...

Towik the Third...
Well contentment makes u content..happy...tired...and that can shackle you...and make u just want to rest in the spot uve reached...
of course contentment in the physical is a good thing..but in the intellectual..perhaps not..

Towik the Fourth...
Yes...I know how to stand up for myself when push comes to shove..lol

Towik the Fifth...
u crack me up..lol

itsallgood...
for u as well?

swfm...
thanks

anonym00kie...
thats a good point...the quiet and shy ones..often find other means of expression

David...
sorry...lol
I'm not usually violent

Stacey...
well..I'm still a bit shy in real life..situations

sarah...
heh..true..
good to hear uve found ur voice...

moiy...
speak up...please..
i find i save more money by chasing cabs...lol
u think I have one?

Chavera...
Not sure..are u quiet?

Open..
exactly...exactly...thanks

November 10, 2006 12:57 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

I don't know if you learn more, Dave..
but you reach many more goals perhaps..
I do know people who are extremely aggressive - also nice..but aggressive in going for what they want in life ...
Umm - first of all - thinking about it..
they really know the goal they're reaching for - and they look for the quickest way forward..
while others look on admiringly... a bit jealously maybe too...
and perhaps they say to themselves..
Uch, that person, is soo aggressive...
but they are going onwards in life..

November 11, 2006 1:59 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

I think that lots of times the quieter ones are deeper - as mooks says..
but i doubt that it's exclusive..
but finer for sure
:-)

November 11, 2006 2:00 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

I see what you say about being laid back and contented -
it's not something I can relate to..
I'm never really content
lol
not a good thing really
I see what you mean though -
Open says it well too

November 11, 2006 2:02 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

And about standing up for yourself..
I find that difficult many times
even when push comes to shove
I have to almost meditate to relax
lol
and then stand up for myself..

November 11, 2006 2:03 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

generally i am very relaxed
but i can also be overly forceful

November 11, 2006 2:04 PM  
Blogger kasamba said...

Whoa!
so powerful- is that how you really feel?

November 11, 2006 3:04 PM  
Blogger workingema said...

I hear you there, although I have to admit I was not one of the quieter ones and usually stuck up for myself.... but one good thing... for the quiet ones, I tried to stick up for them as well, being that I felt they were too timid to come foward and be pushy, so I'd do it for them.. I wasn't always thanked though, so.. ya gotta know when to go and when to stay....

November 11, 2006 10:23 PM  
Blogger workingema said...

LOL- and BLOG HOG (TOWIK)
You really got rolling here!
So are you relaxed or forceful- I don't think it's so good to be both extremes!
and I agree- quieter ones I usually deeper, but not always. I'm not quiet, but I can be deep, just no one knows it....yet

November 11, 2006 10:28 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

the thing is, workingema
I AM an extreme person
lol

November 12, 2006 5:06 AM  
Blogger bellanny said...

sounds familiar... I have learned to make my move and speak up over time but I will never be loud... and just a note to those out there, try not to take us quieter ones for granted, we need people to be there for us too

November 12, 2006 1:49 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Towik the 6th...
Yes..thats what I feel I'm missing out on..

Towik the 7th...
finer..yes..and I guess there is to be gained from being finer...
if ur flour..lol

Towik the 8th...
being quiet and not content is a potent combo..

Towik the 9th...
Its the end result that matters..

Towik the 10th..
I see..lol

Kas...
I've felt this way..often
thanks..

workingema...
well..thats good..
I can feisty when challenged...thats the thing..the shackles of contentment dont allow me to be challenged easily...

bellany...
well said...
workingema..is gonna stand up for us..lol

November 12, 2006 4:35 PM  
Blogger Shopaholic said...

ok, ok, you've said it LOUD AND CLEAR.
As your apointed Editor in Cheif I'm gonna get some of these published. about time too.
Look out blog world we're gonna launch David Lake into the other world. so keep checking your weekly papers!

November 12, 2006 9:00 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

Shopa
YOU GO GIRL

November 13, 2006 6:50 AM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Shopa...
well its about time...I was about to fire u and get a new editor..
lol

November 13, 2006 9:00 PM  

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