Thursday, September 20, 2007

surrender...





I can’t anymore...
Cant fight this war

Theres only so much
I can..
Its just too much..
The stench..smoke..
Rattled nerves..
Unsure cause...

Here I am..
Emerging from the haze..
Hands raised...
White flag...
Wrapped around my body..
Hungry..
Thirsty..
Tired..
Hoarse..
Submitting..
Commiting..
Myself..
To you...


But even in this lowly world..
Don’t they understand?
You treat a POW with respect..
{can I expect}
?
You clothe and feed...
..all that I need..

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wishing everyone an easy and meaningful fast...

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19 Comments:

Blogger Open Up! said...

the music is chilling and adds to the already chilling words...is that how you feel? like a prisoner of war during the yamim noraim?...or is it that you feel you are a prisoner within the bars of your sins and you want to surrender them in order to have peace...to completely and utterly devote yourself to the one above without the shackles that hold us down...

September 20, 2007 12:35 PM  
Blogger Open Up! said...

also, wanted to mention i'm first!!! but didn't want to take away from the serious tome of the post

September 20, 2007 12:36 PM  
Blogger Open Up! said...

tone*...one more thing (sorry for taking up so much space)...have an easy and meaningful fast...gmar chasima tova and a gut gebencht yur!

September 20, 2007 12:37 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i agree in essence we are surrendering, but it never seemed so morbid...are we truly spent, does g-d want us to be sooo
wated? or are we surrendeing our WHOLE selves to g-d? i would think the second one more likely.

September 20, 2007 1:08 PM  
Blogger The Dreamer said...

i love the imagery of the white flag... wrapped around your body...

and no, not all POWs are treated with respect... depend who they're captured by...

September 20, 2007 9:28 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

open...
This is how I feel on Yom Kippur...when I suddenly realize how petty this battle is...Because face it..we're always challenging the good in us and in a roundabout way..God himself..
But on Yom KIppur..I just give up..no strength..you glimpse how silly your cause is...and are willing to be taken prisoner..
Gmar Chasima Tova..and all the best to you and yours..

Anonymous...
God would rather we never started this battle to begin with..but he takes us in lovingly when we finally do break.. and submit to him..

dreamer...
thanks...
well..Im not sure Heshem follows the Geneva Convention..but it does K'Malchusa D'Arah..Malchusa DeRokia..

September 21, 2007 9:02 AM  
Blogger Sara with NO H said...

A gmar chasima tova shanas geula vyeshua v'hisromos keren yisroel. a git yom tov easy fast poil ois alwes git

September 21, 2007 4:52 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

soul affliction
is not
an addiction
i'd like always
to possess.

but, yes! it is over. (whew!) may we all be
s e a l e d
for good.

david, the photo and words and idea of surrender is brilliant. (couldn't get audio to work)
meaningful fast, for sure.
kol tuv!

September 23, 2007 10:10 AM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

anonymous...
Nice lil poem u got going there...
No..not always..and
not possess..

and amen..and thanks..

September 23, 2007 8:50 PM  
Anonymous davidsbiggestfan said...

David, i am new to blogging, but i must say that i am blown away by your talent..you have a new fan!

September 23, 2007 10:35 PM  
Anonymous Lvnsm27 said...

It takes strength to surrender. funny huh

September 24, 2007 2:22 AM  
Blogger Miriam said...

i hate to put you in a box, David, but can I know if your orthodox, conservative, etc?

Such interesting poetry, such takes on things. sorry, you can ignore the question if you like.

September 24, 2007 8:24 AM  
Blogger AT PEACE said...

Theoretically, you are right - If we place all our wrongdoings on one side, our good deeds pale in comparison - and therefore it would be a lost battle.

Tshuva is a strange phenomenom. If Man A kills Man B and Man A goes ahead and does tshuva, can he bring Man B back to life? Of course not!

In the beginning of time, we find Kayin (Cain) who killed his brother Hevel. Kayin tried to fool Hashem and he did tshuva but it wasn't a real tshuva. Nevertheless, as a credit to him for his "realization" that Hashem accepts tshuva, Hashem granted him a kaparah and his punishment was lessened (if that's a real word).

Again, by King Achav, who did tshuva and continued doing the same aveiros afterwards; Hashem delayed the punishment for a few generations because he did tshuva.

Tshuva seems to make no sense!

Everything in this world has a balance.

R' Akiva, one of the 10 Harugei Malchus - was judged with total 100% Din. He was the only one ever to be judged with 100% Din.

There's always a balance which is a mixture of Din and Rachamin.

To counter the 100% Din of R' Akiva, (because there has to be a balance) Hashem created Tshuva (for all generations) which is 100% Rachamin.

Which explains why Kayin's punishment was lessened and why Achav's punishment was delayed.

You can do tshuva even though it seems so bleak and unlikely. In spite of whatever you may have done. We don't need to surrender or lose the battle.

Tshuva is ONE HUNDRED PERCENT RACHAMIM!

One last question -

How can we do tshuva if we know we may very well do it again?

R' Yisroel Salanter says that - in that moment when you do tshuva - if you are sincere and honest with yourself that you don't want to do it again - then your tshuva will be accepted (even if you end up doing it again!)

Never give up...especially on yourself...

I apologize for this really lengthy post...please don't delete it : )

September 24, 2007 4:18 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

DBF...
gee thanks...
welcome..and enjoy...
:-)

lvnsm..
so true..or extreme fatigue..

miriam...
umm I'm orthodox...

at peace...
Thanks for your post..i mean comment..
:-P
Good points..
The surrender is not really a giving up...
Its a personal..realization..that to fight God (fate) is futile..tiring..and frustrating...
so we surrender..on a day like yom kippur when we truly realize this..

September 24, 2007 8:58 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

miriam...
Did you mean..that I think out of the box?..
Do my ideas seem too modern?

September 24, 2007 10:30 PM  
Blogger Miriam said...

No, just refreshing to read poetry. I've been at the grindwheel for a while now. Not really reading anything 'fun' or 'entertaining' or puns, etc etc etc. Until I got introduced to blogworld. So, i'm just curious about everybody! I'm not judging anything /anyone. Just observing and enjoying.

September 25, 2007 4:54 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

miriam..
what d u mean by grindwheel?
Well..glad that u stop and read..

September 25, 2007 10:17 PM  
Blogger Miriam said...

grindwheel - I've been reading more of things I need to read like mussar, halacha, hoshkofah, etc. While I appreciated them and continue to read them, I did often wonder where was the adventure in words, the plays, the puns, the poetry, etc.

The summersaults of the mind with different ways of seeing something, or writing something, etc.

Just basically, I haven't read stories (except Light of Ephraim), haven't read poetry, etc for a long time until blogworld happened to me.

(Jokes, I read from internet.)

September 26, 2007 12:59 AM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

miriam..
ahh ok...
words are magic...and people have been spinning them into creative tapestries for millenia..
There is definitely a time for everything (if I may paraphrase King Solomon..)
Time for heavy..TIme for lite...

Chag Sameach

September 26, 2007 9:16 AM  

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