Monday, September 24, 2007

The End...




picture taken from my hammock last autumn...

You know that feeling?
Before a major test...
You study for hours..no rest..
Exhausting nights..

And then ..that moment..
When you cant study anymore..
The morning of..
Or sometimes..after its over..
You just sit back..
Close you eyes..
It feels
Good..

I’ve always felt an affinity with Sukkos..
Sukkos to me is about..breathing in...
Connecting...
Its about endings..
About the sum..
Its about..
Going outside into the crisp air..
..and
Adding another layer..
Its about being content..
About being spent..
And the joy..
Its about gathering up..
Uniting..
Coming to terms..

Its about Koheles..
About reading “The End”
And smiling..

I watch the leaves..
Those beautiful leaves..
Showing off..in their own way..
Final display...
Brilliant...

And they speak to me..
They tell me..
David..yes..there is beauty
Beauty in
Death...


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26 Comments:

Blogger Bas~Melech said...

Nice thought. The end (pni) is another turn towards your old friend, morbidity. Why bring in death? I thought you were going at a different kind of end...

September 24, 2007 10:29 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Bas_Melech...
Read koheles...
Thats what its all about..

We are so afraid of death..these days..
But..there is beauty in the end..with the right attitude..

September 24, 2007 10:31 PM  
Blogger come running said...

fantastic.

September 24, 2007 10:39 PM  
Blogger Chana said...

that's a gorgeous idea. accepting what will be, accepting that there are endings (at least physical ones.)

September 25, 2007 12:19 AM  
Blogger nuch a chosid said...

Beautiful as always
have a gut gebencht yohr
and enjoy sukkos :-)

September 25, 2007 12:40 AM  
Blogger Fajita said...

okkkkk, the music the music the music
I thought I never knew this woman's music, and it goes on and I found my tired self singing right on along. How is this possible, hmm hmm hmm?
(it ever been an airline's theme song? dunno whyyy that idea just popped into my mind.)
thank YOU FOR SHARING:) yahoo
'night

September 25, 2007 1:43 AM  
Anonymous Anony said...

Accepting death....ok...I can hear that. But beauty in death...? I don't know....
The ending caught me by surprise. A little morbid...

September 25, 2007 9:38 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

brilliant piece..again.
anony, i think it actually speaks more of life. the word death is part of a sentance...not it's own paragraph. read it for the whole sentance and yu ll see it makes such empahsis on the beuty.the life. what we can be grateful for even though death may surround us. in essence, its a similar analogy for this mundane gross world that our sould have to deal with...and find the beuty and life in it to take back to heaven...
thats what i take from this piece...

September 25, 2007 11:37 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

yes!
to align with such things! it is true. we are in a season where we face death, and yet also ponder beauty. a time of letting go, of assessing, sifting, getting rid of old dead things that no longer serve us, or once did, and respecting that. but we are like the trees, who lose their beautiful leaves--strangely most colorful and vibrant before their release. flowers close, gardens shrink back into the ground, returning to where they came from, leaving only what is essential. does this not set the stage for sukkot? we all return to a vulnerable state of being-- bare--but equally contradictory, like beauty juxtaposed with death, in that we return to the strength of who we most essentially and fundamentally are--dependent upon Him.

September 25, 2007 11:53 AM  
Anonymous m00kie said...

i love it!
i never read kohelet, so i dont fully get it.. but what i do get, i love.
i agree there is beauty in death, in endings...
endings and beginings are flipsides of the same coins. you cant have one with out the other, a beginning with no ending is pointless, endings create beginnings, beginnings lead to endings.

to focus on the beginnings and ignor the endings is just an excuse to escape, it isnt real. a real beginning must lead to an ending.. a real ending leads to a beginning.. beauty!

anyway, im rambling..
but i love it :)

September 25, 2007 2:05 PM  
Blogger The Dreamer said...

lovely piece.

succos is my favorite time as well.
'specially in the holy land.

your observation about leaves is striking.
yeah, it is kinda like the display of the closing fireworks...

chag sameach!

September 25, 2007 2:47 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lately you write like you are trapped. What is trapping you, David? Death is beautiful?!?!

September 25, 2007 4:58 PM  
Blogger Spelling Mistakes said...

I am sad this Sukkot, not having my own one puts this all in a diffrent light.

I admire your honesty

Chag Samech

September 25, 2007 6:38 PM  
Anonymous yudNo.22 said...

I have been thinking about this post on and off today. It inspired me to actually commit to a name. I shed the "anonymous" tag and let the other "anonymous" hold full ownership. I am now, yudNo.22!
I was also thinking of "Good Night Moon"--the children's story where you say good night to everything--in essence, good bye. I was just out walking--beautiful warm night--and such grief to see summer wane. Good night, green grass! Good night, dark blue sky! Good night, trees filled with leaves! Good night, warm breeze! Good night, freedom that summer brings!
Sigh. Good night!

September 25, 2007 8:18 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

CR...
Thanks...

Chana...
Thank you..
exactly..

Nuch...
Thanks...amein...and you as well..
:-)

fajit...
My pleasure
:-)
Yes..it weas ina commercial a few yrs ago..although I cant seem to remember which..

anony.....
as the next anonymous pointed out..Its really not morbid..when viewed in the entire context..
its about celebrating..the end...
It's The harvest festival..

anonoymous 11:37...
Than yu..
I like your take and analogy...

anonymous 11:53...
are u the anon that left that mini poem in the last post?
You should be writing ur own posts..
Yes Sukkos is very much in tune with the season and time of year..and general mood..
and perhas thats why it comes directly after Yom Kippur when we do teshiva and cleanse our past actions..so we can gather up a pure harvest..

September 25, 2007 9:53 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

m00kie...
Thanks...
Oh..its a fascinating sefer...and so in tune with the season..along with the whole yom tov..
Good point about the cycles..because the truth is..the dead leaves provide the nourishment for the next generation of trees and leaves..
Thanks for rambling here..
:-)

Dreamer...
Thanks..
ahhh Are you there now?
Youre right there is nothing quite like sukkos in the holy land..
But you have to come back here for the foliage display..I'm afraid..

anonymous 4:58...
Oh no...Not trapped at all...
and I never said Death is beautiful..I said There is beauty in death..
Bg difference..

spelling...
aww..Youre invited here..
iy'h next year..youll have ur own..(actually..come to think of it..i dont either have my ow)
Chag Sameach..

yudno.22...
Hmm I'd love to hear an explanation for this name..
Ahh my all time favorite kids book...
I love the way you wrote that..
But after..ur goodbyes..you need to turn around and say..Hello cool autumn breeze..(and hope no one hears you..lol)
:-)

September 25, 2007 10:02 PM  
Blogger fashionista cat in a zero gravity shoe-store said...

That time of year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those boughs which shake against the cold,
Bare ruined choirs, where late the sweet birds sang.
In me thou see'st the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in the west;
Which by and by black night doth take away,
Death's second self, that seals all up in rest.
In me thou see'st the glowing of such fire,
That on the ashes of his youth doth lie,
As the deathbed whereon it must expire,
Consumed with that which it was nourished by.
This thou perceiv'st, which makes thy love more strong,
To love that well which thou must leave ere long.

(William Shakespeare - Sonnet 73)

September 26, 2007 1:03 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Fashionista...
Thanks for sharing that lovely sonnet...
I guess the Bard and I think alike...although..I dont quite write like him..

September 26, 2007 1:41 PM  
Blogger Miriam said...

ah! the ending caught me by surprise too!

I have a friend who is dying. Hopefully a miracle will save her. I wonder if I should share this...

September 28, 2007 3:44 AM  
Blogger BEHIND A SMILE said...

Beautiful - leaves me much to ponder over. Sort of reminds me that it is through sinking to the lowest levels that we see the beauty and appreciate the journey back up to the highest point. Another well written post!

September 29, 2007 6:54 PM  
Blogger BEHIND A SMILE said...

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September 29, 2007 6:54 PM  
Blogger fashionista cat in a zero gravity shoe-store said...

David, great minds think, feel, and breathe alike.

September 30, 2007 3:42 AM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

Hiya Dave,

I think there's beauty in death too..but only if you've made sure there was beauty in life..

The way you described this time of year an' all....my feelings too.

Chag Sameach!

September 30, 2007 12:23 PM  
Blogger the only way i know said...

p.s. -

you got Chana's approval
Ohh La La!

:-)

September 30, 2007 12:25 PM  
Blogger Yehudi01 said...

BEAUTIFUL site. Glad I came by. L'shalom, Daniel

October 01, 2007 7:05 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

miriam...
Thanks..
I guess it would depend on her personality...
If shes a content person...and has what to be proud of in life..then by all means..
Refuah Shelema to her..

behind a smile...
Thanks.
I like ur comment..sometimes..that is so true..

fashionista...
me and shakespeare...??
oh gosh...I have a wayyy to go..
lol

towik...
Thats so true...
We have to live life in a way that ur not afraid to die..
Chag Sameiach to you too!

and yes I noticed..the great Chana liked it..(insecure me..lol)

Daniel...
Thanks..welcome and chag sameiach

October 02, 2007 12:46 PM  

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