Monday, November 05, 2007

Faces at the window...


From old blog. Not G rated.


Empty room..
Gaudy
Big
Haughty
She stands over her precious
Protecting her
Watching over
Windows all around
Not a sound
Faces pressed to the pane
Insane
Intense gazes
Siblings..Grandparents..Principals..Teachers..Rebbeim
Faces..
Presence...
The room..the air
Thick
Unsafe..Unfit
For your little lungs..
Must shield her
Don’t fight..
Don’t fight it..
It worked for your sisters
Shhh Stop.....
Its for your good..
Mommy stop..I can’t breathe
Why are you so difficult..?
Cant you see I’m protecting you..?
Ziesskeit..
Look at this air..
Stop..
Just a little more...
shhh
All those eyes..
Thru the dusty air..
struggling
Mommy...stop...you’re hurting me..
YOU’re sMOTHERing me...
Shhhh...stop
Shhh..
Anxiously..oh Hashem....
Pinning her...
please just a few more minutes
...years
Mom STOP
I Can’t F___ING Breathe






Gasp



The eyes disappear
One by one..
Shaking their heads..
Leaving
Smudge marks on the pane
The pain
Exhaustion..





Just go




In disgust...


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20 Comments:

Anonymous Anony said...

Tsk tsk....I'm SHOCKED!!

Figured someone's gonna say it...so lemme be the first lol.

November 05, 2007 2:50 PM  
Anonymous DELICIOUS DEVIL said...

a mothers love can be smothering at times but a mothers love is also the most genuine- its when we are adults that we long for a mothers"smothering" aka a mothers shelter. thank god everyday for the gift of your mother- make sure you let her know how much you appreciate her and cherish each moment you have her... and remember your kids might think you are smothering them too- smile thank god you too have the privledge of being someones smothering mommy p.s im not saying being smothered by your mommy is fun while its happening but thought id let you view it through my eyes

November 05, 2007 4:43 PM  
Blogger corner point said...

Almost cried...
I know what it feels like to be smothered...
(A bit freaky...go read my most recent post...)

I would love to hear how you explain this, why you wrote it...

November 05, 2007 7:22 PM  
Blogger The Dreamer said...

Ouch.

November 05, 2007 8:55 PM  
Anonymous YudNo.22 said...

encore to "ouch."
david, you must explain.

November 05, 2007 11:06 PM  
Blogger psyched said...

omg I'm freaking out! What does this mean??

November 05, 2007 11:08 PM  
Anonymous m00kie said...

i dont get whats not to understand?!

gave me chills.. just like it did the first time..
so much pressure to be what they want.. what they need..
suffocating, pushing out, turning off..those that need protecting and reassurance and acceptance..

November 06, 2007 4:33 AM  
Blogger LakewoodShmuck said...

love and breathing space.
a happy medium.

November 06, 2007 6:32 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Explanation.
Parents are under so much outside pressure to cookie cut and raise their children to the exacnt model given...and the pressure is so real and difficult to resist..but it doesnt work for everyone..but the people at the window..fail to realize this and keep up the pressure..and the mother is so torn...and thinks..just a few more years...just until she finds a good shidduch....and the daighter senses this...and struggles...and comes to hate the system..and parent..until she breaks..and does something drastic...at which point..the faces dissapear...and the child is deemed helpless...

oh well

November 06, 2007 8:47 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Ps.
This is not autobiographical in any shape or form...

November 06, 2007 8:48 PM  
Blogger Fajita said...

defensive? u? you're being defensive?

November 06, 2007 9:44 PM  
Anonymous YudNo.22 said...

i love it. i love the explanation. like art history, the background information is just as important in viewing the piece as the painting itself!!!

btw: i didn't imagine that it was autobiographical in any way. but, this is brilliant social commentary for sure. bravo! well said!

November 06, 2007 9:51 PM  
Blogger AT PEACE said...

Thanx for the explanation. How unfortunately true...

November 07, 2007 10:51 AM  
Blogger fashionista cat in a zero gravity shoe-store said...

Besides, 'David' wouldn't be my top pick for a daughter's name ;)

Brilliant piece though; even I as a non-religious person can relate to it very well.

November 07, 2007 2:21 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

anony...
it seems ur the only tsker here...

d_d...
Its very true..that a mothers healthy love can feel smothering at different times in life...we always end up missing it..when its not there...

corner...
sorry...
you seem like a very strong person...though

dreamer...
ouch

22...
thanks..u are way too kind...

psyched...
thanks for stopping by..
there it is..

m00ks...
thanks..

ls...
indeed...

fajita...
lol
umm who?..me?

at peace...
yup

fashionista..
lol thats true..
Thank u...

November 07, 2007 4:49 PM  
Blogger psyched said...

Thanks for the explanation. It's a very powerful piece. WOW.

November 07, 2007 11:09 PM  
Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

psyched..
Thanks

November 08, 2007 8:21 PM  
Blogger moshe said...

david can we be in touch off the blog? do you have an email adress you can forward me?

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