lost

In the alphabetic confessional Viduy that we say...
these days...and all days..
the final two...Ta'inu..we have gone astray...
and Tit'anu..is a source of much contention..
what exactly does it mean?
heres my 2 cents..if I may..

It says...In the path in which a person wants to go...he is led there...
in other words...Hashem...not only let's us choose
whatever path we want to travel on..
he even helps us attain our goals..
no matter how bad they are..

...there was a time..when people chose..
paths..and ideologies....divergent from our own...

but today...today?
we are so lost...
so far from a semblance of a path
and so we say..Ta'Inu...we have strayed
we are so lost...
we aren't on any path....
and the Posuk says...if you see someone's animal..astray..
If you see it wandering off the path....you must return it...
again...and again..and again..even a hundred times..
so we beseech our Father and say...don't lead us further..
down this path..because...there's no path here..
we're lost...

and that could be what Tit'anu means...it's 2 times the word To'eh תעתענו
in other words...we've been lost and lost..again and again...
and yet...you always find us..
somehow..

Gmar Chasima Tova



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